Care
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Sleep, Rest, & Productivity
As I face the “weekend” I also tally the things I have accomplish the last few remaining productive hours and days I have had prior to “absolute abandon”… I find myself getting very productive in the 24-48 hours before a weekend, so that when it is the weekend, I will hopefully do nothing at all… …but then there are times where I am recklessly productive during the “weekend” as well, or I might try to do something recklessly “fun” for a few hours or half a day with my partner.. and then time is gone, and I am back to work… wondering why I never got the rest I wanted…
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Celebrating Self
When I get a TDA, my hope is that I will spend time doing things that help me feel special or important in some way. A celebration of self. This will often involve me putting on a bathing suit for feelings of attraction or seduction (with or without my partner home or around) – or I will dress in loose or casual loungewear. If possible, I might even just stay naked for hours at a time. Not wearing something is often more comfortable and can require less mental effort. In the safety of home, it does not really matter. Today I gave my partner a brief lift to their car…
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Life in Shingata Corona
Living a “normal” life in shingata corona is a bit different. Being “gay pride” month and with ongoing protests for the rights of oppressed people and the ending of Police tyranny… there are plenty of negative triggers in the news. My relationship with my partner suffers in terms of melancholy mood, struggles with couple focus, lowered libido, and decreased stamina or interest in doing things (could stopping T be to blame at all? hard to tell…) We both suffer from a sort of fatigue from the added layer of requirements in our jobs and daily lives due to the global virus pandemic. Oregon is opening, like other states, by county…
