Social conditioning
- Goals, Habits, Help, MIT, MOVEMENT, OTHER, REHABILITATION, SELF, Social conditioning, Triggers, Where is the
Concentration
Concentration is difficult in this day and age! There is a lot of ways to divide our time and countless ways of instructing, training, applying oneself to the task at hand – but actually following through on something – especially if you’re a chronic self-starter like me – you find yourself surrounded by projects that were started, or in the steps of getting to that point – but never finished. In addition to these steps in modernization and technologies – the accessibility to others through social media and just electronics (i.e. phones, e-mail, notification bumps, pings, computers) is OVERWHELMING for any human being – hearkening back to when Drew Barrymore…
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Celebrating Self
When I get a TDA, my hope is that I will spend time doing things that help me feel special or important in some way. A celebration of self. This will often involve me putting on a bathing suit for feelings of attraction or seduction (with or without my partner home or around) – or I will dress in loose or casual loungewear. If possible, I might even just stay naked for hours at a time. Not wearing something is often more comfortable and can require less mental effort. In the safety of home, it does not really matter. Today I gave my partner a brief lift to their car…
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Life in Shingata Corona
Living a “normal” life in shingata corona is a bit different. Being “gay pride” month and with ongoing protests for the rights of oppressed people and the ending of Police tyranny… there are plenty of negative triggers in the news. My relationship with my partner suffers in terms of melancholy mood, struggles with couple focus, lowered libido, and decreased stamina or interest in doing things (could stopping T be to blame at all? hard to tell…) We both suffer from a sort of fatigue from the added layer of requirements in our jobs and daily lives due to the global virus pandemic. Oregon is opening, like other states, by county…
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Rockets, Protests, & a Pandemic
“We want justice for all…” announcer for rocket commencement speech said in reference to shingata corona and why Musk would move forward with sending several astronauts into space during the current national emergencies… Busily marking on my Samsung 6, I muttered, “Like hell you do – what does justice have to do with a virus? Virus’ don’t care about justice or people, just survival… and sending rockets into space isn’t justice related at all.” Frustrated I tried to tune out the sounds of other operators around me sharing stories of spray painted buses and flash bombs from the activity the night before. “They’ve got, [hand motion makes rifle gesture] right?”…
