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Skunk Porta-potty
And in other news, three baby skunks tussle behind the porta potty at the MAX Flavel service stop. Operators have been made aware and are on alert not to make it any more stinky than it already is…
- Binary concepts, Chosen Identity, Humanitarian, MIT, MOVEMENT, OTHER, Politics, Relationship, SELF, Social, Triggers, Value, Where is the, Where is the Movement?
The Gentle Hollow
My sprouts are growing… the leaves on the trees swivel and float in the breeze. The gentle hollow, home to fledglings, 20+ bird species, countless squirrels, and other rodents, plus the occasional raccoon, coyote, or white-tailed deer. I have had some bad news this week. The worst one can in my job occupation – aside from a fatality or successful suicide attempt. This morning I received some good news – the best of times, the worst of times… that is now. Tomorrow I start back at bus, with 6 hours of re-training before they send me out to do work. After which I will do bus each day as an…
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Cinnabar & Phos
In a 2017 Japanese animation series, Houseki no Kuni (Land of the Lustrous), I was taken with the no-nonsense colloquial writing, character development, voice actor performance, and drop-dead, gorgeous scenery. (for an informed discussion of deeper levels of humanity as portrayed in this manga/anime, watch the YouTube video by Avo Rabo) There is a subtle implied love story between two characters that never really fleshes out, but is imbued throughout the 12 episodes. Series that are heavily based on a theme are interesting on another level when it comes to being “informative”. These various characters are based on minerals and gems, so they are luminous and bound by their “strengths”.…
- Binary concepts, Care, Chosen Identity, FAMILY, Father figure, Goals, Help, Humanitarian, Identity, MIT, Mother figure, MOVEMENT, OTHER, Queer, REHABILITATION, Relationships, SELF, Social, Triggers, Triggers, Where is the
Dream People & Self Learning
After a troubling few encounters in my current profession this last week I had come to realize – yet again – that no one had my back when I needed them to. Not only that, but I would need to learn to define for myself the gray areas when people are harassing me and how much I can or should tolerate before calling it a day and having someone else deal with it (safety risk assessment… but also a personal one) Sometimes these days are accompanied by dreams, but sometimes these dreams come later or much later. In a recent dream where I was designated to arrange or complete a…
- Binary concepts, Chosen Identity, FAMILY, Help, Humanitarian, Inspiration, MOVEMENT, OTHER, Relationships, SELF, Social, Social conditioning, Traditions, Triggers, Triggers, Where is the
People as Children
What’s so wrong with being a kid? Children are people, people are children – all of us on some level. What is so wrong about relying on others? Is it not true that there are natural instances for when relying on others takes precedence? Perhaps for some of us we have symbiotic relationships, maybe things are mutually beneficial – though we differ extremely. And then, there are those of us that are codependent or dependent on others as a natural course – whether chosen, or selected by default (genetics, disability, etc) Who are we to judge those that need others to support them? That need others to improve their quality…
- Binary concepts, Help, Humanitarian, Inspiration, MOVEMENT, Muse, OTHER, Political, Politics, SELF, Social, Social conditioning, Where is the
Democrats & Republicans
Fuck ’em. Walking our pug late at night on our “weekend”, my partner checked the mailbox and found another ‘call for donations’ from the President Obama campaign for funding the political party… My partner tossed the letter in the trash. Biden talked about this. He promised that. And what happened? Nothing. My partner went on to remind me: $2000 a month COVID-19 stimulus check? Only the $1400 per working individual in March 2021 to round out the $600 from the turn of the year(?) It is May, no further “monthly” check ideas… Student Loan Forgiveness? That fell by the wayside. Disappointment. Chagrin. Would have been nice for many of us.…
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The Giant Otter… (“God’s Design Team”)
God’s Design Team, a whimsical, Japanese animation spin on how the various creatures on Earth came into existence. Today I learned about the “Giant” Otter that is, of course, larger than the other otters, but more so, they are able to take on or fight small kamen, in addition to other larger creatures – either for eating or just being territorial. The Giant Otter (no longer cute!) And so another animation has taught me about something that always existed in the world, but was never important enough to come to my attention until now…
- Binary concepts, Care, Goals, Help, Inspiration, MOVEMENT, OTHER, Queer, REHABILITATION, SELF, Social conditioning, Triggers, Where is the
Wisdom of the Masses
Twelve plus years ago my primary partner was reading a book (among many others) that they were interested in. The topic was understanding the wisdom of the masses. I laughed at the title saying, “the point of a statement like the wisdom of the masses can only lead to a bottom-line that there is no wisdom in the masses“ I think & believe that anyone with experience in social conditioning in groups, schools, churches, etc. know how a group of people can gather, rise up, and sway opinion based on a few ring leaders (even modern day memes, social media platforms, and even movements, etc. bear witness to common day…
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Seedlings!
Queer meditation and relaxing activities are good for the heart and soul! ー( ´ ▽ ` )ﾉ Quality of life improved – Quality of life – アップ！ I bought seed packets at Winco a few weeks back. On an impulse while walking through the market I got lost in the various pictures of what one could grow. Though curious about actually growing pumpkins, I knew that tomatoes or cucumbers would be more vestment than I could do – much less space I had to work with… the flowers on the other hand were plausible. My impulse investment in time and pay-out this last year were bird feeders, bird feed, and…
- Binary concepts, Care, Chosen Identity, FAMILY, Goals, Habits, Help, Identity, Mother figure, MOVEMENT, OTHER, Queer, REHABILITATION, Relationship, SELF, Social conditioning, Traditions, Triggers, Triggers, Where is the
Humans Change
So, I put my “honey-moon” bathing suit in the Good-Will bag today. I keep telling myself “next year I’ll be able to fit back into this – or maybe next year” and how proud I would be with a before and after photo showing how much I am still the same person I was in 2008 as I am in 20–whatever. I have had multiple opportunities to throw this bikini out. Countless conversations in my mind, but this last week pushed my resolve. I was measured at the doctor (I do not weigh myself anymore because negative triggers abound in life, and that is one less one I could care…
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